What time is it: 949P
Where am I: in the living room on the couch, slipcovers off, room pretty well cleared, waiting for the new carpet to be installed tomorrow.
Listening to: The fan on my computer. I'm' not sure why it's going
Last ate: Thai food with LK, celebrating an attained work goal.
Thoughts: The last 28 days I've been rather silent, I know. But some of what's been going on is hard to just throw out there into the blogosphere. I suppose the best way to describe the past 28 days is that of beginning a journey. I've been feeling something well up inside for the past 18 months- a call to .... well .... something. And up to a few weeks ago I've been running around trying to tag what I think that "something" is.
And then I felt God call me to 40 days of dedicated prayer with him. The first few days -- oh dare I admit weeks?!-- were basically me coming to God with my version of how things should go, spoken in monologue form.
And then somewhere along the way I realized maybe I should give God a bit of time in the monversation I had created, so I started reading through Psalms, which has been nice.
And then this last weekend I met with 14 other women to begin training for the Continent Care Connection I will take part in come October. I think if this were a book, the past weekend would be one of the middle-of-the-book chapters. Things have happened before, and things are happening since, but that weekend was where something changed.
Prior to last weekend this welling-up, call-to-something was beginning to over take me. It was like my mom said to LK when I was preggo with Geo "when she starts to vacuum the lawn, you know it's time." I felt like I was ready to go vacuum the lawn. I just wanted an answer!
But last weekend I spent time in contemplative prayer. Time doing nothing but asking for the grace to know God and be known by Him. And it was life changing.
In sign language when you sign "change" one hand completely flips from the top to the bottom. That's what happened. Do I still want to know what the "something" is - yes. But it's moved from a vacuuming the lawn, to peaceful anticipation.
Looking forward to where this all leads....
3 comments:
Wonderful journey, enjoy
I know a great place for a silent retreat or a retreat
Red Plains Monastery, beautiful, they have a pond, prayer labyrinth
Sheila
I LOVED this post! I think I need to spend more time on *be still and know* and less yakking myself!
Oh that men would praise God for His goodness, and for His wonderful works on behalf of the children of men! He satisfies the longing soul, and fills the hungry soul with goodness. Psalm 107:8-9.
Katy, Thank you for reminding us that change in how we perceive and receive God is possible!
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